It have been many years now, what needs to be forgotten should have been by now, some say. Well not entirely, some may have moved on but deep down the feelings of bitterness, pain or hurt may still be lurking around. I truly understand this, because I been through it; be it being hurt or hurting others, I'm being convicted of both ends. Sure hurting others is an easy task, but the person being hurt sure ain't having the best time of his/her life. If you ever have a little of that conscience of yours, and you know that you have truly caused that hurt in someone else, and you think it is completely okay to do so. Then I must say you can't feel much for anyone else, because you only care about how you feel about yourself.

Coming from my past, I truly am aware who I had hurt and I do owe the person a heartfelt apology. I know what I did in the past and what had happened did not end up in a good note. I was running away, hiding and pushing away. Over the years, I carry the burden of feeling that I did not end things the way it should have been. It could have been better; just nicer, perhaps. I cannot return to past, but I can work on what we have now; our friendship, perhaps. Thank you for accepting my long overdue apology.

A baby girl was born on the 20th October in the mid-1950's. She was a healthy little one, the second child in the Choy family. Unknowingly she was given away to another family, even though the Choys had the ability to provide for her. She often wondered why they made the decision to give their own flesh and blood away, and not even bothered to ask of her well-being over the years. "How could a mother not love her own child?", she thought to herself, being a mother of two herself. Soon hatred consumed her, and forgiveness would never be given to her mother.

the flour...
the yeast...
the egg...
the milk...
the butter...
let's do some kneading.

grate the cheddar & mozerella cheese...
slice up the mushrooms...

spread the tomato paste over the base...
sprinkle some cheese...
sprinkle the minced meat...
top it all up with more cheese...
let's bake it.

time's up...

the wonderful pizza is ready to be served.

all done by yours truly.

How true this simple quote may be? Indeed we often do not see the good things that happened before our eyes; lest our hearts do not feel. Often the simple treasured goodness just slip passed you, and it happens whenever bad things happened. Is this where "all things happened for a reason" comes into the elusive picture?

Why do we often wait for bad things to happen to realise the good things? Why don't we open our eyes and feel with our hearts?

It's been awhile since i caught up with my friend, CH. Initially we had decided on meeting at Raffles Link Pacific Coffee, but i decided to change to Max Brenner's for a change. However the change was a disppointment.

When we first arrived at the Max's, we stood there for awhile to be waited; we had to get the staff attention instead of them giving us the attention. (please note: only 4 tables are being occupied) Then when we finally got seated, we were only given ONE miserable laminated menu. Personally I disliked it when a table had to share one miserable menu, moreover I'm sure there were more menus available to go around as the other tables already had their food served.

After we had placed our orders, it took another good 20 minutes or more to get our beverages to be served. We were starting to wonder if the staff had to go harvest more cocoa beans to make our chocolate beverages.

Anyway I am pleased with the beverages and ambience. I loved the smooth thick chocolate taste to CH's Hug Mug Venezuelan Dark Chocolate, as the name says it, you have to hug it to drink it. It was really such a pity that a fine store which holds a lovely name with poor service quality.

Final note: I'm not the only one who reckons its poor service. Check out http://singaporeblacklist.blogspot.com

Place: Water-Rise Pancake Burgers
Location: Parkway Parade (Outdoor)
Food: Chicken cheese fries

nothing annoys me more then unacceptable service attitude of service staff. firstly i had to stand at the counter for more than 5 minutes to be acknowledge as a consumer wanting to purchase their products. the female staff who was closest to the counter did not even acknowledge my presence. (blood starting to boil) i noted that there were only 3 tables occupied with customers, and 3 staff in total - they looked as if they were "very busy" and shorthanded. (even though only 1 table left to be serve with their food.) finally someone from behind the counter realised that i need to order my takeaway chicken cheese fries (8 miserably thin pieces; damned i hate pictures on advertisement banners), so i ordered and waited... basically it took me about 17 minutes to get the darned chicken cheese fries. *fumes*

anyway i got to mention that Aburiya has good service recovery for their customers. i forget to mention about it in my last entry, since i'm on the topic of service quality, i have to comment on them. basically they gave me the wrong bill and without checking the bill, i signed for it. later when i checked the bill, i realised it was a wrong bill, totalling to over 200 bucks. i clarified the bill with the staff and later the staff came with the right bill and apologised for the mistake. they also offer vanilla ice-cream (Haagen Daz) as part of their service recovery. and i left the place as a satisfied customer. *thumbs up*

Place: Aburiya
Location: Robertson Quay, Quayside.
Food: Foie Gras (duck liver), Aigamo (sliced duck meat), Beef (variations of sliced, steak cut & chunks), Shiitake Mushrooms, Garlic Chahan (garlic & beef fried rice) & Kimchi
Drinks: Tiger beer & Grape Soda

Aburiya is a Japanese grill resturant, unlike the korean barbecue which food are being placed on the hotplate to cook the food; here at Aburiya, the patrons have their meat and vegetables cooked over the grill which is fired by charcoal.

Though the menu of the meat is limited to beef, lamb, pork and duck. (where is the chicken?! i'm not sure either. *shrugs*) It gives you the choice to choose the type of marinate for the meat - salt & pepper, soya sauce, barbecue and lemon juice. Personally I love the shiitake mushrooms grilled. Hmmm... yums~

Another not to be miss is the rice in hot stone bowl called Bi Bim Bab, which is something like the Chinese claypot rice version. This time I opted for the Garlic Chahan, cos I had Bi Bim Bab the last time I went there, and Garlic Chahan is basically frying the rice with lots of garlic and sliced beef. The garlic taste is so strong it can keep a vampire away! Remember to take some mint along.

Overall, I still love this place, though the pricing is above the higher end of the mid-range. And might not be a good place for those who are looking for value for money sort of food, cos the food come in small portions of meat. Prices ranges from $8.90 - $20 per plate of meat. So be prepared to pay for the amount for the portion of meat served. Otherwise I heed you not to dine at Aburiya.

"There's a time and a place and a reason
And I know I got a love to believe in
All I know got to win this time."

i wanted to do some blogging last night... not until something else distracted my attention away. i was lying on my bed, chatting away with my boyfriend... until my eyes caught the attention of the sticky four-legged, icky looking skin-coloured creature, which would put me in consternation on my wall. *screams* "lizard!!!" if you haven't known me long enough, the sight of lizard sends chills down my spine. i'm defnitely not a big fan of the lizard family, even though my close girlfriend keeps an iguana. She has attempted many times to get me to give her Rex a little pat, but ultimately a scorn is what she gets from me. anyway i woke my dad up from his slumber land to exterminate it. in the midst of passing the kettle with hot boiling water from my mom to my dad and my mom wanting to carry the dog. no one else's eyes were keeping a watch on the lizard, and after inhaling all the insecticide, the icky fella fell off the wall, and no where else to be found. after some searching around, dad caught sight of it and caught it, but only the tail was in. where's the body with the legs?!?!?!now it is still lurking somewhere in my room.